I feel like crying all day long like a loser. If I picture one side I can't think of the other. And if I picture the sad side, it takes a while for me to cure. How I wish this didn't happen. It's interesting. All the details. I see more now... after every shit I went through. It all just happened. And all the bad just happened after that. I see everything now. I see the intense hatred. Ignorance. Just because of  I failed. But I still see the other side. The completely oppsite side. The side I always wondered about. The side that had always excited me. I waited for it happen. The real thing. But Im far away. Moving further and further away. As everyone around me are pushing me back. Even the people I'd always preferred. But I'm not gonna give a damn. I will wait. I can't do anything else easier.